Monday, March 1, 2021

jail break

 I fidgeted, trying to write a visitor use management plan for a forest. It was sunny outside, and torture to be in! Lately I find that it is never enough. I had already been for a run, so why couldn't I just sit happily? Yet, I could not.

Finally I gave up and grabbed my snowshoes. Earlier I had run up the road to Kinney Lake, only to find it completely drifted in. A brave soul had tried to four wheel it up the big hill and had failed, having to back down. I wanted to get to the lake--it's one of my favorite spots. Tonight, I would get there.

I parked at the base of the hill and trudged up, running into some ice fishermen I knew on the way down. "We tried to beat a path," they said, "but it drifted in." My snowshoes crunched in the crusty snow, and I could spy a kite up ahead. It had to be my friend out kite skiing.

I arrived at the lake to discover him leaving, claiming it was too gusty. I had the lake to myself, and I walked out onto it. The view here never disappoints--I could see the Seven Devils in the distance, and right above me, the Wallowas. 



A few disconcerting slushy spots sent me on my way before too long, but not before a pink sunset ensued. I hadn't been all that motivated to drive out here, but it was worth it.

Later, my friend P and I got on a Zoom. We were both working from home, but he wore a tie while I had on a hoodie dress. We were over it, we agreed. We needed something to look forward to. 

We decided it was time for a jail break. We pondered on October for a hiking trip. All around me friends are going to Hawaii, Mexico, Costa Rica. I'm not ready for such far-flung travel (who wants to skulk around Hawaii in a mask?) but closer destinations, we agreed, by then, should be okay. I am luckier than he is, living close to the wilderness. It has been a lifesaver in a year where nothing much has been great.

Sometimes I wake up feeling like every day is the same, work, try to fit exercise in, sleep, cram cram cram. "You have a hurry-up personality," a friend observes, and while I don't really like that about myself, I have to agree that it often feels like there just isn't enough time. Will that change once I no longer need to work? I don't know. All I know is that I am trying to squeeze out every second that I can. 





12 comments:

  1. Gorgeous. Sometimes you just HAVE to get out. The weather is SO sunny here (love it) and temps are supposed to be close to 60 on Friday (though as the weather service tells us, it was warmer this time last year). I've been swamped with work though at least I've gotten out on prescribed burns and that has been wonderful (outdoors, exercise, great views, building work connections). I am seriously considering a short (4-day) retreat to Playa (silver lake, OR) to get some quiet time away and do some writing. Exercise opportunities aren't that difficult to come by, but solitude is a rare gem when you live with another person (and a dog!).

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    1. are you applying to Playa? I thought about this too, someday. I too have very little quiet time which is why solo exercise suits me right now. Going to be almost 50 here, which is kind of frightening actually. I may cruise down to the Wenaha.

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    2. Playa has self-directed residencies available, you sign up for a slot, pick a cabin, tell them what your project is. Most slots are up to 10 days, the studio cabins are the least expensive at $100/night. There aren't a lot of timeframes available and I may have waited too long to decide. My work calendar is filling up and fire season is coming...
      https://playasummerlake.org/self-directed-residencies/

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    3. Well, I signed up for 5 nights at Playa starting Mar 25th. I won't have to use any leave time, perhaps a few credit or comp hours, and it may be my only opportunity before fire season ramps up, and all the other things that come with warmer weather and home ownership and growing your own food and all that...

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  2. Your work life sounds just like mine was. thats why I saved my money and got out the instant I could. It is so pleasant to be outside when you want, even during the polar vortex I went outside.

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  3. What I meant to say was, I am well aware! My retired friends are all over social media extolling their lifestyle. I still feel like I have a few things to accomplish in the work world--I am doing some good things. That being said, as soon as I save up another $75K I am out of there.

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  4. I often say that I need to retire from retirement to enjoy some quiet me time, to relax and recharge the batteries. Having said that, I wouldn't change anything.
    I find it interesting that your friends are doing 'far flung' travel. We ae very limited with internal travel here, and flights OS won't be reinstalled by SEptember at the earliest.
    I love your snowy sunrise.

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    1. That is why your country is doing so much better than ours.

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  5. Reminds me of the movie, Groundhog Day. I know, tho, that was a comedy, and real life groundhog days are not. I feel your pain, understand it so well as I was you until I retired. The wait was killing me, tho, so I left early. Money is not everything. We skimp and get by ok. I wouldn't trade my freedom for more money in the bank. But that's me...we all have to decide for ourselves. Peace.

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    1. I understand. I haven't worked 32 years to have the very strict penalty I'd get in my already small annuity for leaving early. I'm actually ok with working right now...can't go anywhere anyway. Might as well hunker down and save money.

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